Well...easy said about my condition, it happened at the open house that we went just now. Syafique was being not good to the host's child and made her cry. Syafique actaully was concentrating watching TV and that poor kid, like other normal kids ran around him that made syafique annoyed, I think. Not long after that, the kid fell down that of tripping & looked like syafique purposely did it. What make feel sad is when the kid's parent asked syafique why he did it, why he tripped the child? Ooooo.. it made me so embarass & I still feel it. Like I don't know how to take care of my boy.
Honestly... I have no offence at all towards the parent. The parent...as a teacher, I know that'll be the normal response to a kid who are not being good, polite, etc,etc.etc. My awkward, uneasy feelling is totally because I feel guilty. Unless this feeling is gone, it'll effect all my emotion completely. Simple thing could blow me out. I easily get angry and of course just to syawal. I told syawal about my instable emotion exactly after that moment & I think he knows why I am getting so cranky. I just couldn't help it. I tried to cool down though but it is so not easy. I hope when I wake up tomorrow morning, things will be back to normal, PLEASE :(. Interestingly, early I read in someone's blog how she's not happy with her son behaviour when they went to an open house. Almost same with my situation, I think. To the host, I am really for my son's bevaviour. I'll surely teach him a lesson & hope it won't happened again.
On the other totally different story...tonight is the season finale of DH. There is a quote for tonight's series that I found very interesting. It's Tom & Lynette's scene when they're trying to talk to this gay couple about marriage. It was Tom's line....... is that person next to you on the bed worth the trouble??? How true is it right??? Sometimes (read: most of the times) we fight over very simple things but actually that is only a tiny part in marriage. What if we've been tested on very big test. How we gonna deal with it?? e.g. if one of you is diagnosed with cancer?? That quote really make me worship my relationship with syawal even more. Anyway.. .. I am very glad they'll show the new season of DH the same time next week. I though I have to wait until next year to watch the next season. The ending of this finale was really awesome & I was really shocked to see susan kissed other man, not Mike. Can't wait to watch the next episode.
