Gambar raya 2010

Tahun ni color theme....golden brown. Warna dipilih masa kat kedai. Ada size bapak ngan anak... set!!!. Keempat2 baju beli kat kedai yg sama. senang citer. x smpi 1/2 jam pilih...settle :)

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ari ni ari membelek blog, baca my old entries, naik syok plak, hehheh. nk tulis panjang2 tak smpt, upload gambar jelah.

bz nya saya

ish..ish... my 'stereotype' statement: asyik ingat nk update tapi tulah dok bz manjang, huhuhu. Serious, tak sempat nk update blog. Ingat nk tulis kt opis but the moment masuk my opis mmg tak ada masa nk tulis. keje tak abis2. ini sem baru dh mula, lglah tak ada masa. bila dh smpi umah, lglah aku mcm lipasa kudung sampailah myCC falls asleep. klu dia tidur awal oklah tp like tonight. I don't know what has gotten into her. dia punya hyper active, masya Allah. aku rasa mesti few bites banana cake yg aku suap dia td. lesson to be learnt.. never feed her something sweet. aku ingat coklat je yg boleh bagi dia hyper active.

tiba2 rasa ngantuk yg amat ni. alahai... br nk start tulis dh x ada mood. tak apa aku cuba paksa jugak. MyP dh mula sekolah ari ni. alhamdulillah, dia tak nangis. risau jugak tp I guess sbb dia dh besar sket. ada jugak sedih2 mula2 tu tp dia tahan. aku as usual, lps antar dia masuk kelas trus kluar tp si bapaknya duk melayan/ meleweh kt dlm kelas tu temankan myP. dah masuk std. 2 pun nk kena pujuk2 lg. the funny thing was... budak2 lain tak ada pun parentsnya meneman. nmpk sgt my anak bujang ni manja terlebih. the main diff between sekolah kt uk ngan sini is the money. sgt berbeza. bila aku congak2, dekat rm2k nk kn bayar utk his skool. itu termasuk fees dialah. tulh, saper suruh gatal antar kt private skool. stationary plak... dia nk semua transformers. bapaknya plak tak nak beli yg pirate2. nk kn original; merchandise. hahh kauu... amik. school bag je dh 100. ish..ish.. manalah ubat kt kepala ni tak main banyak2. agaknya the next 2,3 yrs dh putih semua kepala aku. oh tidakkkk

psl myCC, at 8 months I think her progress is quite fast. believe it or not dia dh pandai on her own, w/out support/holding at anything. klu ikut since Nov kot tp 2,3 ari ni mmg dh stable abis. aku kira tadi..she can stand steadily about 10 - 15 s which i think lama lah jugak. and dia dah tak suka dlm walker dia. her movement is limited lah tu. also, dh ada gigi sebijik kt blah bawah. suka gigit org & sakit plak tu klu dia gigit. dia dah pandai salam & kiss klu disuruh. so cuuttteee. Betulllll. yg lg best, klu pegang phone dh pndi letak kt telinga tu. tp sempat lagi sumbat phone tu dlm mulut2. budak2 ni semua bnd masuk mulut.

last but not least our BM house. very slowwww progress. tp harap2 by end of this month boleh masuk. bnyk bnd dh install... klu ikut boleh dh nk duduk tp kt porch blum siap completely. lgpun ada banyak bnd2 kecik nk di touch up.

oklah. aku dh super duper ngantuk. bbbaabbababai

Macam-macam ada Part 1

hmmm... susahnya nk update blog skrg ni. I thought when scored is over, banyak lah free time. I was totally wrong!!. macam2 benda nk citer tapi keje scored tak abis lagi tp hopefully, the next few days bolehlah settle. Itupun bnyk bnd aku buat sndr. nk tunggu info dr org lain, I wonder bila boleh abis. anyway, biarlah. at least I am happy sbb bnyk bnd scored are my effort solely. With jut a little instruction, I managed to finish the task. Lagipun..I mmg suka keje2 clerical, secretary ni, hehheh. The new semester plak begin next week. tambah lagi new task.

apa nak citer ek..

Citer 1: Finally, I got the long awaited letter. My appointment letter as the sr lect, alhamdulillah. The interview was about 1 month ago. After more than 9 yrs b'gaji ciput, huhuhuhu dpt merasa gaji besar sket. tp nk smpi ke tahap ni, mmg not an easy & pleasant experience. tp suratnya br dpt tadi. bnyk paperwork nk kena complete. I actually owe an entry about my journey since I joined until 2day. tapi tulah...bila ntah nk citer. tunggu2 jelah yer. MyD plak...hopefully soon. tunggu senate letter from soton dulu, then br boleh proceed.

Citer 2: The BM progress. currently tgh buat renovation kt porch depan. major works dlm umah dh siaplah. tp keje remeh temeh banyak jugak. klu diaorg buat keje consistent, hopefully by the end of this year dh boleh masuk. tapi my mom advice lah plak jgn pindah umah waktu bulan muharram & i'll listen to her advice. mls nk cari nas/dalil knp except just listen. myD pun ok bila aku cakap kt dia. so, we'll move in i'allah after mid of jan next year. anyway, mmg satu rahmat bila dpt appointment letter td sbb duit dh makin menyusut, yet ada bnd lagi yg nk dibuat but tak ada budget. bolehlah cover2 sket kan. klu dpt backdated, dble alhamdulillah :).so, skrg mmg very careful with the money flow. every single cent counts. MyP pun dh nk masuk drjh 2 next yr. sekolah kt sini lain mcm kt uk which is semua free. fees, buku dll semua dh almost 1.5k. mmg betullah statement, semakin besar periuk semakin tebal lah keraknya. I just need to plan the expenses & spend wisely of course... But, since coming back from UK, my shopping is desire is so huuugggeeee but still controllable, hehehhehe.

Citer 3:My kids.. since MyD went outstation for a week. The eldest makin manja. Normally, ngan abah dia ajer. MyCC tu x payah cakaplah. anywhere, anytime..ummi aje. she is so different to her bro. she will be turning to 8 mnths in couple of weeks yet dia dh boleh berdiri on her own. I guess tak lama lagi boleh jalan on her own lah tu. oo...dia sgt aktif yer. seriously.... semput dibuatnya. One thing I love about her is the way she eats. She can eat the porridge that I cook for her easily, unlike her abang. bercinta nk suruh mkn when he was at her age. few days ago we went to KLCC & i bought her jar food. Guess what?? She didn't like them at all!!Ummi kena masak slalu lah ni. MyCC is such a lovely girl.. I really love to see when these 2 siblings playing 2gether. full of laughter & I think MyCC has the sweetest smile. Oh waitt, I remember MyP's teacher once told me that she liked to see MyP's smile, very sweet.

Suddenly i lost my mood to write anymore. Blame it to MyD.. he is the one who spoiled my mood. The truth... my PMS is around the corner & the mood swing is already attacking me.....

Hopefully tomorrow I can continue my macam2 ada part 2 story with pictures of course. I left the cable & the card reader as well at the office...bubbye

Penatttttt

seriously.. I am tired, physically & mentally exhausted & it's only been 2d since MyD left for penang. he is due to come back not until sat & yeah...I keep counting the days. Can't wait for him to come back even though I know he doesn't really help in managing stuff but with him beside me I feel happy, comfortable. and I don't mind to do everything. The least that he can do is listening me nagging, nagging and nagging, hheheheh & of course to hold MyCC.

ANW, do you want to know what I did today? OK, I woke up about 6.30am b'cos MyCC already awake. It's become her routine now to wake up around 6. Reason being.. she wants to poo.Then I have to play with her & in the same time, try to some other stuff. Pray, brush teeth, take bath,etc,etc. Very multitasking. I have to distract her with anything in order for me to get the stuff done. Like yesterday, my MIL helped me to look after her while I was ready for work. But not today as my MIL was staying overnight at the hosp & my FIL was bz with his work. Around 7.30am I left for work. MyP was still sleeping. However he cried this morning when I wanted to go. He said he was lonely & wanted me to stay with him. My poor baby. I guess w/out MyD around we all feel lonely. i tried my best to spend time with him, not just on MyCC. MyP is one sensitive boy & I don't want him to think that I neglect him. Luckily, he is in his best behavior, so no headache or whatever.

Reached office 10 min past 8am & my bz day begin. fortunately TV3 is ok already, so I feel so energetic to do some works. Working + surfing simultaneously!!!. I tapu'ed fried bihun 4 breakfast and At lunch, I went out with a colleague that I knew since b4 I joined UPM. Catched up on each other & yeah, I had a good time. Then, continued doing work until about 4pm. Performed my zuhur & then off to MyD's relative place. I had to take them to the Putrajaya hosp with me, to visit the new member to the family. Stayed at the hosp until the visiting hrs ended. Then drive home back to semenyih. Luckily MyCC was in a very good mood when we're in the hospital. so anybody can hold her & I could relax :). but still, it was very tiring. Supposedly, my SIL wll be discharged 2morrow. glad I don't hv to go to the hospital again.

Reached home about 9pm. MyCC poo poo, tidy up the room, prepare the stuff for tomorrow & to make it worst, I have ulcers. yup, not one but two. As usual, whenever I have ulcer, it always come with a headache or tootache, hhuuu. and that make me even more tired.

I am so sleepy now. cannot write anything anymore. ANW, in 1 min, i'll be 34 yrs old. Happy Birthday to me. MyD already wished me jst now.

MyCC in action 1

the VC was taken yesterday using my C905. She is superbly active. She is just 6 mnths but she can crawl from the living hall to the kitchen in a very short time where the distance is not so near just to chase me, her loving ummi. One thing I noticed, she has a very sweet smile exactly like her ummi, hehhehehe. I really love to see her big grin & now I missing her already. her favourite move now is to stand up. She will hold anything and try to stand. When she's standing, she will let go one hand or sometimes, both hands. what a brave little lady. Wait until she falls down, we'll see if she wants to do that again :).

We actually have a videocam but it's already become a 'gajah putih' & MyD already mentioned to buy the latest version one, *sigh*. i still remember the time when he told me to buy the old videocam, the same year when MyP was born. I actually opposed his ides as I like still pix more. But he insisted to buy one & I had no say at all except just agreed with his idea. He said he wanted to capture MyP in action so that he will have his childhood memories. he said he's gonna edit all the VCs & put them nicely in a CD. Yup, we have lots of taken video but all the VCs are still in the cassette & I am not really sure where are they now, huhuhu.

p/s: more VC of her will be uploaded soon

citer dolu2...

hhehhehe, baru2 ni aku kemas2 barang lama & jumpa kad2 ni. lawak btul aku rasa. Tiba2 plak aku lupa tahun bila punya kad ni. yang aku ingat masa tahun 2002 tu dia bagi berlebih2 kadnya sampaikan tahun 2003 dia pun lupa trus. thn 2004 tak lupa dah sbb takut aku buat drama swasta lagi, hehhehe. yang satu lagi envelope yg ada tulis emirates tu, itu lain entry punya citer.


kita citer sketlah what happened on 2003 tu. hehhehehe. Oct 2003, kami bertiga ke Soton, UK for our MSC studies. masa tu kewangan kitaorg mmg agak teruk. MyD resigned from his job & my salary yg mmg sikit menjadi makin sikit sbb nk bayar study loan dia, campur plak ngan other hutang piutang a.k.a credit card debts. mmg kami ni sengkek betullah time tu. so utk top up our expenses tu, he worked as a cleaner while studying. masa tu mcm2 benda nk kena pikir, dua2 study yg punyalah bnyk assign + MyP kecik lagi, br 1 1/2 tahun.

Di pendekkan citer, my b'day kan bulan Dec & every year I looking forward for it lah. Of course I expect something from him. I didn't expect something big b'cos with the financial condition on that time, just a b'day wish is enough for me. A day b4 my b'day, mmg aku dh excited sangat2. Dlm hati, paling grand pun mesti dpt b'day card jelah ni. B4 that, nak cakap jugak myD never failed in buying me extravagant b'day presents, since b4 kawin lagi. Still remember, my 1st b'day present from him was Color Club watch, then followed by cincin (I still have that ring), gelang kaki, perfume set & then lupa dah. Kitaorg start couple thn 1995 & kira sendiri lah dh brapa lama kan. So...my b'day in 2003 tu , dr pagi aku dah tunggu dia wish tapi x wish jugak. Aku mmg seriously tunggu fro her wish. From morning to afternoon to late afternoon till night tak wish jugak. My feeling pun dr excited sesangat dh turun ke upset & by night tahap ke'upset'an aku dh beyond repair dah. sedih sangat & of course kesedihan tu tak dapat ditutup lagi. I didn't really remember how I told him about my sadness but I still remember I really cried that night. Nangis yang berjurai2 air mata. I totally hurt that night *sob, sob,sob*. Dia pun of course rasa bersalah lah. samabil menangis tu aku duk meluahkan lah kekecewaan aku tu, hehheheh. perasaan marah tu mmg dh x ader. Aku ni bukannya jenis yg senang sedih2 tp mlm tu sedihnya tuhan shj yg tahu.

Lps2 tu mmg aku btul2 rasa sgt tawar hati of everything. in fact smpi skrg pun. b4 this I was someone yg susah nk lupa any important dates. lps that acc, aku dh mcm malas nk kisah. His b'day on april 2004 aku ingat. usually, adalah buat grand2 sket tp that yr aku bg jugaklah kad but not from me, just from MyP. i was still in merajuk mode. presenat jauh skali. lagipun aku ni mmg kedekut, x penah bagi dia hadiah mahal2. the though that count, kan? our wedding anni pun aku buat2 lupa & skrg dh lupa trus. nasib baik dia ingat. He really learnt from his BIG mistake.

So, sambung balik pada citer kad2 yg aku jmp ni. 2 kad kt bawah ni dpt masa thn 2002. ada 2 big dates on Nov & Dec. satu our wedding anni on 4th Nov & my b'day on 9th Dec. raya puasa pun dlm bulan2 tu jugak. MyD surprised me ngan series of greeting cards & mmg aku betul2 happy lah & terharu jugak. mula2 dh dapat satu kad, then few das after that dapat lagi kad. romantiknya suami ku. Itu yg tahun 2003 satu bnd pun dia tak ingattt, WAAAAAA :(.

yang bawah ni b'day kad tahun 2004. nasib baik dia tak lupa. Since the acc in 2003 tu dia dh set reminder kt h/p so mmg takkan lupa punyalah my b'day. klu dia lupa jugak, mmg nak mampus lah tu. Dulu2 dia bg excuse mmg dia kan kuat pelupa tapi aku counter balik dia punya excuse tu, seblm kawin tak penah plak dia lupa. apsal lepas kawin boleh lupa plak. dasar lelaki kan??

Sekarang ni mmg aku dh tukar approach kalau nk apa2. instead of hoping he will surprise me, I asked from him directly during special occasion lah kan. MyD ni macam slow sket bab2 romantik ni. Aku pun dah lupa when was the last time dpt bunga dr dia. yang aku tak lupa, dia penah bagi bunga campur kat aku. tak romantik langsung, hehehehhe.

Bila ingat2 balik mmg rasa happy aje. lagilah bila baca kad2 yg dia bagi ni. mmg lawak betul yet I can feel his love. hhehehe, I love you too abang. tapi skrg ni kitaorg dh tak bagi kad dah to each other. dh anak dua ni, cara celebrate dh lain sket. my b'day is around the corner. tak tahulah tahun ni camner. I hope he will not forget about it. If not.... hmmm. no comment.

p/s: aku tak tahu camner gmbr2 kat atas ni boleh terpusing camtu. so if you want to read the card, pls adjust your head accordingly, hehheh.

monday blues

klu last monday aku rasa heppy & energetic semacam tapi ari ni rasa dull lah plak. last week hepi2 bila dpt email ckp duit elaun thesis dh masuk. bukan sikit. banyak plak tu. aku ingat 2,3k aje tgk2 dkt 6k. alhamdulillah. dgn k'daan skrg yg mmg nk pakai duit ajo. not long after that dpt call dr bank rakyat. cakap loan dh approve & kena pg sign. dble alhamdulillah.. dah terbayang rumah ku syurgaku kt BM nun.

ari ni aku rasa mcm down gile. tak tau knp. rasa tak da mood pun ada tapi x adalah teruk sgt down'nya. hehehheh. hmmm, ntahler. pagi tadi dlm keter dh cakap ngan MyD, bila tgk renovation kt BM tu rasanya mcm banyak aje keje lagi nk buat. MyP pun tiba2 tanya bila kita nk pindah umah. dari hari ke hari mcm ada aje bnd baru nk ditambah. nk tambah tu nk kena contact sana sini. dulu2 ingatkan nk renovate bhgn dapur ngan depan aje. tiba2 terpikir nk renovate sket2 kt toilet atas. mn nk pikir wiring, piping lagi. hmmm. nothing much can be done except waiting je lah :).



last week was really a bz week. kat opis mmg ada bnd nk disiapkan & bukan sket plak tu. kdng2 ada gak aku rasa angin. I mean aku balik2 trus dibagi keje sedebuk tapi bnd2 tak di bagi semua. terhegeh2 jugaklah aku duk mintak. tapi so far so good. apa yg aku plan nk siapkan dh siap. nak sambung lagi buat tapi tak boleh. yg aku update blog ni pun sbb tak leh nk smbg siapkan. kena tunggu file2nya dr org lain yg tak lah nk bagi kt aku skrg sbb sibuk ngan keje lain. pastu sibuk uruskan psl rumah. maakk aiiiii penatnya aku rasa. aku rasa almost everyday lps balik keje kena singgah mana2 nk tgk/beli barang. penatt weeeii. MyCC pulak demam minggu lepas. nasib baik demam biasa2 aje. aku rasa demam dia tu sbb dia dh nk pndi duduk & berdiri. yup. syra dh pandai pegang kt bdn aku & cuba berdiri. pastu, she is a very good girl. w/pun nk tidurkan dia malam2 punyalah susah. dia dh ngantuk sgt tp masih nk main jugak. tergolek sana sini still tak leh tidur. pening kepala aku. dia tu sebenarnya dh jenis tidur nk berbuai. ptg semlm for example, dia dh ngantuk lama sgt. punyalah aku cuba susukan dia atas katil, tepuk2, dukung tak tidur jugak. skali aku masukkan dlm buai, x smpi seminit trus tidur. anak dara ku tu... ooohh, btw, she'll be 6 mnths next week & she is ready for her solid food already. klu kitaorg makan, mmg dia dh sibuk dh nk makan jugak.



weekend pun sibuk. patutnya sabtu tu ada graduation my SIL kat uitm. nk dijadikan citer. since she is pregnant, tak dibenarkan attend the ceremony sbb takut H1N1. frust jugak dia tapi nk buat camne. so sabtu kami kluar pg carik tiles. from nilai to kajang to other part of kajang. pegi 3 kedai aje tp penat dia jgn cakaplah. kluar pukul 10 pg & balik umah smula kul 3.30pm. nasib baik MyP tak ikut. yg ikut cuma MyCC. yalah my MIL tak ada offer nk tolong jagakan pun. pun another thing yg buat aku bengang/terasa. mcm semlm pun kitaorg kluar lagi psl rumah. pg kluar, petang pun kluar. ptg tu pg tgk umah sbb org cabinet nk dtg ukur. again, MyP tak nak ikut, MyCC mestilah ikut sbb you know why. Dlm keter tu aku dh ckp kt MyD, mak dia tak ada pun nk offer jaga. dh petang bukannya dia ada keje nk buat except tgk tv aje. apalah salahnya dia offer nk jaga. lgpun aku ngan sywal bukannya nk pg mana.huhuhuhu. yg buat angin bukannya apa...balik petang tu diaorg tgh borak2 kt ruang tamu. aku ingat nk naik atas nk susukan syra. boleh plak masa nk naik dia suruh letak MyCC ngan diaorg. nak main2 katanya. aku mcm berasap aje. klu nk main2 tu jaga lah skali. ini suka time budak tu ok aje. bila nangis br nk pass kt mak dia. MyD pun mmg tak penah nk suruh his mom jaga. the reason.. dia tau mak dia tak suka jaga even cucu sendiri. bayangkanlah almost 3 mnths duk situ, MyCC tak ada suka kt saper2 pun excpet me, MyD & MyP. even antar pg nursery pun dia dh tak nangis skrg.



oklah. mls nk leter2 lagi. now at least aku rasa ok sket, hehheheh. lagipun pagi2 tadi aku dh ngadu2 sket ngan syawal psl kes semlm. as usual dia senyum, which means he agrees with me.

After 2 months and 20 days

.... we're almost settled down & getting busy and busier everyday, huhuhu. But I love our new life here.

Once in a while I do miss UK tho'. I miss my strolled from the house to the office, feasting my eyes with the same surrounding every day & never got bored of it. after 3 yrs of walking thru the same route, I knew my SV's fav parking spot, hehheh. What else did I miss?? Oh yes, I miss our family-bonding session which is seating on our big sofe & watching TV. I don't know why but it is so difficult to watch TV here. We normally reach home about 5pm. Upon arriving, I make sure all our stuff (MyP's skool bag, his uniform, MyCC's nursery bag, etc,etc) are looking good as I don't want my MIL unhappy if she looks her house in messy condition. I am so bz at night, preparing stuff for the next morning & by the time I finish, I can hardly open my eyes, huhuhu. Syafique too, by 9pm, he already very sleepy & he has to wake up at 6.15am. About watching TV together, the funny thing was, the day I thought about not watching TV for so long, in that very same day, MyP asked MyD whe we haven't watch TV together like we always do when we're in UK. MyD answer was wait until we move into our own house soon, InsyaAllah.

About our BM renovation. I think it's progressing well. It started end of last month & the last time we went there, the workers already knocked down the walls. The walls for the wet kitchen & the guest room are already up even earlier. the 'not-so' major works are in the back area & then, they need to do some work on the porch area. After that, just 'make up' process & we can move in. However, at the moment we're quite bz on deciding/designing everything and time is always the problem as me & MyD bz with the work stuff. even though, my class hasn't started yet but I'll be assisting a conf. organized by my dept which will be next month. I'm in charge on the program book & the proc. They haven't started anything yet when I came & seems like they're now my responsibility, huhuhuhu. Well. at least I have things to do. If not...I don't know what to do except browsing the net, hahahhah.

since coming back from UK, the most noticeable difference between UK and M'sia is we're really exhausted here. It's really hard to feel relax and calm. Everyday, weekdays and weekend we always have something to do. another reason why I don't have much time to watch TV anymore. In UK, our life is only to office. On weekend to CBS. Once in a while there maybe xtvities, like during raya. We also could go for family holidays at least 4 times a yr. But now.. I am too tired to plan for a holiday, huhuhuhu.

this weekend will ber another tiring weekend. We have few invites already & I don't know if we can go to all of them. MyD has function with KCD frens on Sat & I'll not be not joining him. I know it's gonna be a boring function, at least for me.

selamat....

apa yang selamat tu??? hhehhehehe. jawapannya... saya selamat sampai ke opis bawak keter sendiri dr bangi. Since balik m'sia, ada sedikit cuak nk bawak keter. Navigation... saya mmg tip top tapi bila kena drive ni ada sediki MIM.ALIF.LAM.SIN. seblum drive tu dh pikir route2 yg saya akan lalu. nk cari the most convenient route for me. I don't like junctions & roundabouts. Luckily my route today semua OK. lalu hi-way lagilah ok. eventho' masa kt touch n'go, tangan tak sampai, huhuhu. keter bukak seta belt, pintu bagai. nasib baik after 8am, the traffic dh clear. tak ade keter kt blkg. klu tak lagilah cuak.

MD mmg tak kisah nk antar/ pick me up from the office. tapi ari ni dia ada keje smpi kul 5 and we need to pick up syafique at 4pm. tu yang nak tak nak, i have to drive. Luckily too, ada SAGA kt umah too. Beranilah bawak keter kecik2 ni. kalau kena bwk merce atau camry tu, mmg gigil lah lutut. as long as small cars with auto transmission, I'Allah boleh lagi bawak. klu kancil manual, pun boleh bawak lagik. E class syawal nnt mmg confirm takkan ku bawak. very the bulky!! anyway, my FIL kata the SAGA will be given to me jugak later2.(saya smbg bayar lah tapinya).

At the moment, saya malas lagi nk drive pegi/balik kejer. mungkin lps pindah lah kot br drive sendiri. Since yesterday, kami 4 beranak kluar pagi2. mula2 dropkan My cuppy cake kt nursery, then antar my pumpkin kt sekolah dia. pastu me & MD pg b/fast kt mana2 lah. siap b/fast semua br masuk opis masing2. luckily we work on flexible hrs so we don't have to rush. I still need to punch card tho'. lgpun I will teach not until Dec, so lagilah x yah rush.

klu ikut kira oklah duduk ngan PIL ni. I just need to think/settle about our needs jelah. gosok baju, prepare bag budak2, etc, etc. I don't have to cook. laundry pun my MIL tolong except baju syra saya basuh sendiri. melampaulah klu semua MIL yg buat. makin pemalas lah saya.

oklah nk sambung buat keje...( keje apa pun tak pikir lagi, hehehheheh)

Rindu padamu

klaka plak bila tgk tajuk entry ni. macam rindu kt sapa aje. hakikatnya...mmg tgh rindu kat my cuppy cake, huhuhuhu. Mana tak rindu...pagi tadi masa antar dia pegi nursery dia nangis. sedih aku dibuatnya. rasa guilty pun ada. tapi nk buat camno, next week aku dh nak naik keje. nak tak nak kena antar jugak kan.


gambar atas ni amik pagi tadi, masa dia br bangun. syafique pun baru bangun gak. bngn2 aje trus main psp. syra relax aje baring tepi abang dia. mngkn dia ingat tak payah pg nursery kot ari ni. bangun2 tidur dia dh nangis tak puas ati. slalunya klu dia bngn tidur punyalah ceria. dahlah tu, lps mandi n'sipkan dia semua, my MIL dukung dia. bila aku panggil nk amik dia, syra tak nak. 2,3 kali aku try. dia tak nak pegi kt aku. dble sedihhhh. klu tak, tak payah aku panggil dia, nampak aku je trus angkat tangan nak pegi kt aku.

lps antar dia pagi td mmg aku sedih. bila sedih mulalah aku bengang/tension. bengang/ tension kt saper?? kt saper lagi... MIL. tapi bengang dlm hati ajelah & baru aje sat tadi aku mengadu kt si syawal lah. as usual, syawal akan me'neutralize'kan perasaan aku tu. syawal tu mmg pandai men'counter' everytime aku angin2. bila pikir2 balik, mmg betul lah syawal cakap, kitaorg bukan nk duduk sini selama2 nya. later on akan antar kt rumah org jugak. tapi aku still terkilan lah sbb dia mmg tak penah offer cakap nk jaga. padahal kitaorg duduk skali dgn dia. My PIL mmg tak suka antar cucu dia kt nursery tu. w/pun dia x penah cakap x nak jaga, just cakap dia ada banyak keje rumah nk buat. her message is very clear lah kan??? even adik syawal yg expecting her 1st child soon pun dia dh cakap, nk antar kt nursery yg jaga syra ni. tapi pelikkan, anak dia 2 orang aje, cucu pun brp kerat. tapi dia tak excited pun nk jaga cucu. dia lagi excited nk kilatkan rumah yg aku tengok mmg asik berkilat. tulah orang cakap... rambut sama hitam, hati lain2.


gmbr atas ni plak amik semlm, lps amik dia dr nursery. punyalah bubbly masa amik tu. excited bercerita psl dia kt nursery agaknya. tgklah mata syra tu. kecik sebelah. dia kena sakit mata, jangkit dr syafique. sebenarnya aku pun tgh sakit mata ni, hihihihi. ada lah lepas ni budak2 kt nursery kena jangkit gak. tapi for this week antar syra half day aje.

ok got to stop now. In less than 1 hr akan amik syra. syawal balik lmbt plak tu ari...boring seiiii. nasib baik malam ni buka kt luar. boleh jalan2 sket

1st day at her nursery :(

I'll be returning to work soon, so me & syawal agree to send syra to the nusery earlier, to familiarize her with the new environment. However, instead of full day, she'll be there only for half day.


We sent he to her nursery this morning and I've started felling miserable. I keep seeing her giggling,smiling, crying in my mind *sigh*. I hope she's doing OK over there. I hope she can drink the formulae milk. I've tried giving her but as ezpected she didn't want it at all. But I know she can drink it b'cos when we're in johor, I left her with Ina & surprisingly, she could finish the milk.


In about 2 hrs time I'll be picking her up from the nursery. believe it or not I keep looking at the watch. Normally at this time she already awake from her morning nap and only wants to play. I will play with her until she feel tired & ready for the noon nap. Yup.. it's very tiring when you have a small babies b'cos they need ur full attention. However, no matter how exhausted I feel, I enjoy every second of it, huhuhuhuhu. She is of course very close to me compared to syawal & syafique. I really love to see how she eagerly wants to go to me when syawal is carrying her. & whenever I carry, she doesn't want to go to anybody else. When carried by other ppl in this house, she keeps turning her head trying to find me. Once she spots me, her eyes will stick to me only, beeging me to take her. She is my smart little girl & now I miss her already.



She is alraefy 4 months & is more bubbly and talkative and ever. It's like she wants to tell us her story. With her face expression while talking, loud voice, i could see the resemblance of me in her, hehehhehehe. And when she cried, always at high pitch volume. Also very inpatient.... like Ummi, hahhahahahah.

oooo, I've taken her to the local clinic for her vaccination last month. The next is due next month. I just realized the cost for those immunisation are really not cheap & luckily we have the gov clinic, so we can get it for free. However, there is one vaccine that she took when we're in UK but not offered in m'sia. She is due for the next dose of that vaccine called pneumococoal (spelling???) and the jab can only be given by the child specialist. At 1st we thougt of not taking the vaccine b'cos the cost is d'bomb (RM270/jab). However, after considering everything, we decided take it. The main reason is we afraid of the pneumonia and this vaccine can prevent that. My sister's daughter once had pneumonia caused from a continuous chesty cough. She told me that after taking that vaccine, her daughter's condition is not that bad anymore whenever she get cough. There is another optional vaccine called Rota***. We're still thinking about it b'cos the cost is RM130/jab and she need 3 doses of that. I think we'll do it but not now. So many disease at the moment.....







another 11/2 hr to go... I can't wait to see her face when she sees me later. Hope she won't 'merajuk' at me, hehehehhe

My cuppy cake

syafique and me have agreed to call syra 'My Cuppy Cake' b'cos when she is very cute, very sweet and we love her very much. BTW, syafique is 'My Pumpkin' and syawal is 'My Darling'. and we are the 'S' Gang, hehehhehe.

special day

17/7/2009... another date to remember. What is so special about it? It was my graduation ceremony day.

I just looked at all the pix taken & I know I must write this entry right away b4 the feeling fade away. When I looked at those pix, especially when the ceremony took place.... it's really hard to describe my feeling. The feeling is not the same like when u receive ur degree or master. One word that I could think of is proud. Yes, I really proud of what I've achieved :). It's been a long journey & not easy. And now, I am sooooooooooo happy!!

Even though syawal hasn't finished his correction yet, both me & syawal wore the robe. So we had our family pix taken at the studio plus other pix that cost us about 150 pnd, huuhuhhuhu. Once in a lifetime, hehheheheheh. The ceremony was simple yet very sweet. I was the 1st recipient for the PhD award & u couldn't imagine how nervous was I b'cos it wasn't like u walk to the chancellor & he'll give you the scroll. I was really afraid if I do mistake, hehehhe. Here in UK, for PhD award, the chancellor will put the hood on you. For that you have to bent down. B4 that, you must put the folded hood on ur right hand. When the head of scholl announce ur name, u've to hand the hood to the special marshall beside u. He will then walk with you to the chancellor. After putting on the hood, the chancellor will hold ur hand & say something that I barely could remember what he said. The only thing that I remember is "U must be very relieved". indeed I am.

Anyway, syawal & syafique were there inside the hall but syra had to wait outside. I can only bring 2 guest with me. Besides, they have age restriction & syra definitely cannot get in. Syafique was very handsome yesterday & he actually was very excited too. He wanted to wear his scoat (bought at CBS at 20pence!!) since morning. Not even that, he asked for a tie!!. What a dear boy. syra is like always...sleeping,crying & hungry!!!. Ooooo... I just remmeber, she poo poo & I had to change her while wearing my robe. Normally she poo poo at noon but yesterday she decided to hold it until her mom wearing the robe, hikhikhik. What a 'naughty' girl.

Suddenly I have no idea what to write *sigh*. I just want to say... I am one happy lady, surrounded by all the ppl that I love. To friends who came yesterday.. thanks for coming & it make me happier even more.

I will try to upload the pix to my FB ASAP and put some of them here. I know my family back in Msia are also anxious to look at my graduation pix :).

Dag, dig, dug......

Phooh.... don't know how to start. Well, today is syawal's big day and I think tve viva is already started. And me??? I am really nervous now. Hope he's doing great.

He left home about 9am this morning. He didn't really know what time is his viva but the internal examiner told him few days ago, maybe around 9.30am. Sometimes I feel pity of him b'cause he got a not very helpful SV. Can you believe it, his SV didn't even email him the time of the viva until 2day. not only this but syawal had to push him on everything. If not, I think I don't know when syawal will get his phd.

anyway..... my pray will always be with him. Can't wait for his call sooooon, I hope.

Doesn't she adorable?

The 1st time I put gown on her & she looked really cute. More gowns for her after this :)

Changing time...

I think syra likes to go out. Me & syawal, almost everyday we go out for our shopping escapade & syra is always being good :). And of course, b4 going out I'll make sure she is in the most comfortable condition.

Pictures below were taken when we're in the baby changing facility, Bicester Village last Fri.

The 'S' family...

Happy 7th Birthday syafique

Today is Syafique's 7th birthday. I wish I could write a lengthy entry BUT it seems like very impossible. I have so many things to do but very little time. Still coping with new environment but getting better.

Anyway, back to the b'day boy story. I could see he has really grown up, not just physically but also mentally. I could rely on him now, to help me. What make me so proud of him is he never said NO when I asked for his help, especially when it involves with his baby sister, Syra. His study is excellent as always & the f/b that we got from his teacher made me & syawal dble proud.

After Syra's arrival to our family, ppl always asked me how's syafique deal with it? My answer.. he is very happy & love syra with much. He kisses syra all the time & that sometimes make me annoyed especially when his sister sleeps. However, last week I was really shocked when suddenly he cried infront of me & syra, complaining that nobody loves him now. Everybody loves syra b'cos syra is new. Gosh, he was really upset & made me even more upset. I really didn't expect that because he never showed any sign of jealousy b4. For me, I think that was very good of him in expressing his feeling to me directly & not do anything that might harm the baby. Since that incident, I realized my darling syafique has really grown up. Both me & syawal felt really guilty. Since then we tried to show to him that we love him too. It's just that maybe the way we show our love to each of them is different.

So... what is his b'day present? For this yr, me & syawal agreed to give him Nintendo DSi. Even though we already have the PSP, the reason we bought it was b'cos of the brain training game. I like to play that game too. He also got additional presents from the grandparens from both sides, batman action figure & clone wars back pack. syafique actually asked for a b'day party but I am not fit to organize the party. We promise him there'll be a big b'day party for him next year :)

To syafique, we all love you & will always love you......HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG!!

Another experience..

I had a very long & painful labour experience when gave birth to syafique and seems like I'm going to have another 'memorable' experience with my second child, huhuhu. It's already 11 days past the due date & if it remains like this until tomorrow morning, I'll go for the induced labour *dup,dap,dup,dap*. I've been booked for induction on labour at PAH at 8.45am tomorrow.


How do I feel??? Most of the time I feel nervous. How if the the induction does not work well on me?? If it's working, the contraction will start and within 4 hrs, InsyaAllah u'll give birth. The level of pain is varies but there are cases when it doesn't give effect on ur body & they have to wait for 6 hrs before knowing that. then they'll give u a drip which be much more painful, *sigh*. At the moment, I can't do much except praying. I hope Allah s.w.t. will ease the process, InsyaAllah.


So tomorrow morning, Syawal & me will go to the PAH. We've decided syafique will not go to school 2morrow as we hope, when there is a sign that I'm about to deliver the baby syawal will pick him & my family to the hospital. Syafique keeps saying he wants to see the baby when she comes out. Me too, hope he'll be there beside me. he is been so dear to me these past few days.


Aaaahhhh, I really hope everything goes well tomorrow. Thinking about it really make me sick. I tried not to think about my final exam but it's so difficult not to do it. I just read through my notes/preparation & the rest of it, I'll leave to Allah s.w.t. Since Fri I went out, just to take fresh air & relax my mind by doing window shopping. It really does help me in make me calm. Besides, my family needs to go out too as I don't think they've much time to go anywhere after I give birth. Ina said I shouldn't go out a lot after giving birth. I need to rest as much as possible at least during the confinement period. But I need to take them to London b4 they going back home in 3 wks time.


Anyway, syawal is about to do something big very soon. It's not happening just YET but after he received call this morning, the chances of not happening is very low. Typical syawal...very unpredictable. It took him just cple of days in making the decision, huh. The moment I saw him browsing something, I knew he is up to something & what is it??? Not gonna write it here but hmmmm, knowing syawal I am not shock/surprise at all. I just tell myself to accept it. I did make loads of arguments/critics of his plan & as expected, he always has answers on everything. He did know that I am not really happy though with the decision but I leave everything in his hand. I know he know what he is doing. Besides, syawal is a high risk taker compared with me who is afraid to do something that I consider BIG step. Well, another reason why I don't really want to think about it is b'cos I have other more important things that already gave headache. To syawal... gud luck with ur decision, hehehhehe and for me I've to re-think/re-calculate abour our future budget planning, huhuhuhu

I think it'll take sometimes for the next entry in this blog. Hope it'll be good news, InsyaAllah. Please pray for me too...