citer dolu2...

hhehhehe, baru2 ni aku kemas2 barang lama & jumpa kad2 ni. lawak btul aku rasa. Tiba2 plak aku lupa tahun bila punya kad ni. yang aku ingat masa tahun 2002 tu dia bagi berlebih2 kadnya sampaikan tahun 2003 dia pun lupa trus. thn 2004 tak lupa dah sbb takut aku buat drama swasta lagi, hehhehe. yang satu lagi envelope yg ada tulis emirates tu, itu lain entry punya citer.


kita citer sketlah what happened on 2003 tu. hehhehehe. Oct 2003, kami bertiga ke Soton, UK for our MSC studies. masa tu kewangan kitaorg mmg agak teruk. MyD resigned from his job & my salary yg mmg sikit menjadi makin sikit sbb nk bayar study loan dia, campur plak ngan other hutang piutang a.k.a credit card debts. mmg kami ni sengkek betullah time tu. so utk top up our expenses tu, he worked as a cleaner while studying. masa tu mcm2 benda nk kena pikir, dua2 study yg punyalah bnyk assign + MyP kecik lagi, br 1 1/2 tahun.

Di pendekkan citer, my b'day kan bulan Dec & every year I looking forward for it lah. Of course I expect something from him. I didn't expect something big b'cos with the financial condition on that time, just a b'day wish is enough for me. A day b4 my b'day, mmg aku dh excited sangat2. Dlm hati, paling grand pun mesti dpt b'day card jelah ni. B4 that, nak cakap jugak myD never failed in buying me extravagant b'day presents, since b4 kawin lagi. Still remember, my 1st b'day present from him was Color Club watch, then followed by cincin (I still have that ring), gelang kaki, perfume set & then lupa dah. Kitaorg start couple thn 1995 & kira sendiri lah dh brapa lama kan. So...my b'day in 2003 tu , dr pagi aku dah tunggu dia wish tapi x wish jugak. Aku mmg seriously tunggu fro her wish. From morning to afternoon to late afternoon till night tak wish jugak. My feeling pun dr excited sesangat dh turun ke upset & by night tahap ke'upset'an aku dh beyond repair dah. sedih sangat & of course kesedihan tu tak dapat ditutup lagi. I didn't really remember how I told him about my sadness but I still remember I really cried that night. Nangis yang berjurai2 air mata. I totally hurt that night *sob, sob,sob*. Dia pun of course rasa bersalah lah. samabil menangis tu aku duk meluahkan lah kekecewaan aku tu, hehheheh. perasaan marah tu mmg dh x ader. Aku ni bukannya jenis yg senang sedih2 tp mlm tu sedihnya tuhan shj yg tahu.

Lps2 tu mmg aku btul2 rasa sgt tawar hati of everything. in fact smpi skrg pun. b4 this I was someone yg susah nk lupa any important dates. lps that acc, aku dh mcm malas nk kisah. His b'day on april 2004 aku ingat. usually, adalah buat grand2 sket tp that yr aku bg jugaklah kad but not from me, just from MyP. i was still in merajuk mode. presenat jauh skali. lagipun aku ni mmg kedekut, x penah bagi dia hadiah mahal2. the though that count, kan? our wedding anni pun aku buat2 lupa & skrg dh lupa trus. nasib baik dia ingat. He really learnt from his BIG mistake.

So, sambung balik pada citer kad2 yg aku jmp ni. 2 kad kt bawah ni dpt masa thn 2002. ada 2 big dates on Nov & Dec. satu our wedding anni on 4th Nov & my b'day on 9th Dec. raya puasa pun dlm bulan2 tu jugak. MyD surprised me ngan series of greeting cards & mmg aku betul2 happy lah & terharu jugak. mula2 dh dapat satu kad, then few das after that dapat lagi kad. romantiknya suami ku. Itu yg tahun 2003 satu bnd pun dia tak ingattt, WAAAAAA :(.

yang bawah ni b'day kad tahun 2004. nasib baik dia tak lupa. Since the acc in 2003 tu dia dh set reminder kt h/p so mmg takkan lupa punyalah my b'day. klu dia lupa jugak, mmg nak mampus lah tu. Dulu2 dia bg excuse mmg dia kan kuat pelupa tapi aku counter balik dia punya excuse tu, seblm kawin tak penah plak dia lupa. apsal lepas kawin boleh lupa plak. dasar lelaki kan??

Sekarang ni mmg aku dh tukar approach kalau nk apa2. instead of hoping he will surprise me, I asked from him directly during special occasion lah kan. MyD ni macam slow sket bab2 romantik ni. Aku pun dah lupa when was the last time dpt bunga dr dia. yang aku tak lupa, dia penah bagi bunga campur kat aku. tak romantik langsung, hehehehhe.

Bila ingat2 balik mmg rasa happy aje. lagilah bila baca kad2 yg dia bagi ni. mmg lawak betul yet I can feel his love. hhehehe, I love you too abang. tapi skrg ni kitaorg dh tak bagi kad dah to each other. dh anak dua ni, cara celebrate dh lain sket. my b'day is around the corner. tak tahulah tahun ni camner. I hope he will not forget about it. If not.... hmmm. no comment.

p/s: aku tak tahu camner gmbr2 kat atas ni boleh terpusing camtu. so if you want to read the card, pls adjust your head accordingly, hehheh.

Pix only...last day in soton

akhirnya dpt jugak nk upload gambar kat sini. itupun sbb syafique dh tidur & syawal klaur kejap, dptlah berlama2an guna notebook. klu tak..jangan harap.

ari tu masa kt soton, plan nk amik gmbr around the uni tapi sampai kesudah x sempat nk amik. ini pun amik gmbr masa nk kerumah k.shima pagi kitaorg nk balik tu. syafique tak ada sbb dia sekolah

An old lady..

Yes... I am the old lady & I think this Phd thingy make me older faster that when it should be. Why I said this???? It's my grey hair. I found more grey hair on my head, *sob.sob,sob*. My grey hair starts to appear as early as I was still in high school. One thing for sure, I know I got this early grey hair from my father's side. And the stress/ loads of thinking from the PhD thingy speed up the process. To make it worse, it makes my head itchy all the time & to overcome that I need to take them put. However, syawal doesn't cooperate with me in this matter. He only wants to take two pcs at one time *huh* & it's not easy to make him to do that. I have to beg him :(. Most of the times, I stand infron of the mirror with a comb & a tweezer, rolling my eyes trying to find one. Whenever I got one, the sensation is so undescribeable. Sometimes, I managed to find up to 10 pcs of grey hair. That is only the part that can be seen by my eyes, not at the back of my head yet. Few days ago I asked syawal to snap my hair's picture & sadly, I could easily spot the grey hair, waaaaaa.

I wish my family is here because they always love to help me taking out all this grey hair. The truth, all of use have been trained since we were kids by my father. Back then, during his nap time we were forced to do it & that what made us all a pro in finding grey hair. Well.. the interesting part is I think syafique has inherited this skill *BigGrin*. It was last night, just me & him at home. I asked him w/out really meant it to look for my grey hair. Surprisingly he enjoyed it & we managed to get 4 grey hairs. What I did was... I asked him to look for grey hair at certain area. Once he spotted one, he took my hand until I got hold of that hair & my task was to pull it out. Everytime we got one, syafique got glorious complement from me, made him more excited to find more. *Good tactic by me*. Sounds funny but it actually works. Well, we gonna do it again for sure because when he woke up this morning, the 1st thing we talked about is this grey hair thingy. Good boy syafique..
One thing for sure syafique got this from me. well.... apples don't fall far from the tree right????

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Yes... I am blank. Don't know how to write my report. I definitely know what to write but don't know how to begin... I hope by writing something here, I might get the idea. The truth... in the same time, I do lots of other things too. Writing, editing my result, blogging, watch youtube, play solitaire, bloghopping, YMing etc..etc...etc.. Yeah, this is my routine whenever I write my report because it's really hard for me to concentrate just on my writing. However, believe it or not, with this multitasking thingy, it works OK with me. At least I do some 'so-called' work :). Besides, forcing myself to do work will not do any good cause it'll end up I am more stress.

Talking about YMing, I just met my long lost fren. Well.... a special friend I might add. He was my junior during my high school. I did write about him in my blog few months ago & I've been looking for him since. Few days ago, out of boredom I typed his name in Google and tadaaaaa ..... he has facebook. Surprisingly, he was excited to meet me back & had been looking for me too. Anyway.. he's married now with the same girl that I knew about. Did some few catch up on ourselves & yey.... :). Anyway... the last time we spoke to each other was in 2000 but it wasn't a good thing to remember. what surprised me, he still remember about it and we're in a good term now. If you wonder what syawal think about this.... he is fine with it. He knows about him & had even met him before. I've told him about that I just met this fren through facebook. I think I've found all my old frens except one. I hope I will meet her sooner or later. My last resort is if I still couldnt find her, I will look for her at her hometown in Trg when we go back home next year, InsyaAllah.

Suddenly I feel sleepy........

Old fren

Yesterday, I was really flat and Alhamdulillah, today is much better. I think I know why. I didn't eat rice yesterday, not during sahur or breakfasting. I must eat rice. BTW, I've lost about 2kg since fasting month started. I really lose my appetite to eat. I eat because I need to.

OK, back to main reason of this entry....Since getting older (but I am not that old...), the feeling to find my old friends is very strong. Whenever I feel bored (like yesterday) of doing anything, I will just simply type my old frens name in Google. Most of the times I got nothing but .........not yesterday. I typed 'M*s**ta N**m' and the search returned m*s**ta n**m@ facebook. I was unbelievably surprised & to confirm that she is the right person that I've been looking for, I checked her fren's list. Found couple of familiar faces to confirm that she is the right person, I added her as my friend and this morning, we chatted through facebook. We're both excited that we met again. Honestly, I do miss her (sometimes). Did some catch up on each other's stories and yes, that really made my day today.

Who is she? Is she special? Hmm... actually I do have interesting story about her. Syawal knows our story & he always use it to tease me sometimes. hehehhehe. She was my junior when I was in UPM. It happened when I was in my second year matric and her, in first year. The first time I saw her, I liked her at the spot. She has dreamy eyes, high cheek bones & even though she likes boyish style, she is actually very pretty. To cut the story short, we became close. Very close and I am not gonna reveal more than this. My frens were hers, & hers were my frens too. However, when syawal & me started dating, our relationship slowed down but still kept in touch. The last time I met her was when she came to my wedding in Johore. She drove all the way from KL to the wedding & besides, she had to go to JB for some personal matters.

I am so happy that I meet her again. She was surprised to know that I still remember her family members. Also glad to know that she is doing great now. I think she travelled to half of the world last year (so jealous) and yes.. she is still single.

My next mission is to find my other long lost friend. She is my friend from high school, SESMA. I've asked other friends about her but no one knows where is she about. But I'll not give up. I even asked syawal to take me to Kuala Besut to her hometown, to find her. To Wea..... I miss you, really do.

To Facebook.... thanks very much. Hope I'll meet more friends there :).

Happy Belated Annivesary to us :)

I should write this entry on the 1st of August. It's not our wedding annivesary but it is the date when we're officially coupled about 13 years ago. To be exact it happened on 01/08/1995, 12.12 am in Syawal's first car, Mazda WBQ 94 at KKCR, UPM..hohoho. Three years later we were then tied the knot :).

I really want to write the detail story here but I kind of busy with something else now. I just remember about it this morning, when I was getting ready for work.